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August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010

Shout out

Haha too long bo blog le.

Decided to come back blogging as i realised there are acutally ppl who read my blog 0.0

So if i ever stop posting again and you wanna read

Just tag on the cbox and i will blog..... i think.

Ok today....

Reached sch at ard 7.30

Then went back classroom and hurried a card for kiara

Then went down and wait -.-

Wait and wait and wait

Then A guy walked up to me and asked who i was waiting for

Then i asked what he was doing

He say waiting for ppl and watching scenery ==

Then i started talking to him

Kiara came.....

"Eh do you know him?" she asked me

I asked her the same ques

It turns out he was her classmate

FAIL

Then the convo started turning funny

I kept holding back my laughs

Then aft a while i just gave her the present and went back

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Then go flag raising

OMFG JUNDI NEVER CAME :D

Now i'm the funniest in class le leh :D

Then after flag raising was science

Aww i never finish the stupid worksheet cos apparently i was chatting all night long

Lucky Mr Tan say can just copy down

Phew ~

Then aft sci was music

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

nothing interesting

Just loads of music :D

Then aft recess was maths

OH NO IT WAS ANOTHER QUIZZY DAY D:

well i spent the whole day wearing yifei's specs

And surprisingly i did ok for it i think

Then it was HCL

went through the ci yu

Quite fun :D

OH YEAH ACC NEXT

Watched jiang nan

Then LIN LAO SHI CAME IN !!!

I missed her :P

then we spent the next hour writing poems

HAH i love my group de

na li you chiobu jie shao gei wo

neng bu neng gei wo ta de dian hua

bu neng ye ke yi gei facebook

bu ran ye ke yi ge email

na li you shuai ge jie shao gei wo

zui hao yao you 6 pax

bu ran yao zhi shao you 4pax

ru guo shen me dou mei you jiu bu yao zhao wo !

Haha i shall post the updated version when brands send me.

Ok then took 12 back with ruiling

saw yanze and sat with him and ruiling went emo D:

THEN GOT 1 UNCLE

TALK ON THE PHONE DAMN LOUD

a while talk softly

A WHILE TALK SO LOUD

then me and yanze was like "he have spilt personalities"

I TRIED TO SLEEP

HE SHOUT

HE SHOUT

HE SHOUT

HOW I SLEEP

then he get off at bedok and i had a nice rest :D

ok thats all folks

Oh yea

and i think jiaqi said this

I look like raffles when i'm serious

I cross my arms D:

HAH mona lisa almost merlion-ed

Ok.....

Wanted to post ytd but gave up in the end so now i'm here posting

BORED AT HOME

School is kinda fun xD

Just scared of the homework i didnt do *does a merlion*

Ok then i shall carry on with updates in my life.

MouseHunt.

Still as noob as ever, not even 200k gold yet

Still mozzing

Yep thats all

Then no more le lo

Updates on daily life,

Not much diff

Seating arrangement as sucky as eva....

I WAN MY BEN LA T_T

But overall ok la

At least i not like felicia or the other girl who sitting beside xiangrong who i totally forgot :P

I like what brandon said

"Chunlin is better than xiangrong. They both touch you. But chunlin just like molest, xiangrong is touch you you almost die"

HAHAHAHHAHAHA

I was laughing at that -.-

AIYA sian leh no one want take 12 back with me de

So SIAN

Everyone say that 12 very long

Long meh !

I dont think so.

Anyway YAY i got kody number

Shall dota with him soon once i actually get back on track with school life

OH YEAH I FORGOT

SCHOOL LIFE XD

THE YEAR 1 JUNIORS ARE SO UBER CUTE

quoted by yi jia.

Weee i like quoting from other ppl.

I getting uber hyper

Felt bored and just decided to crap about something.......

its too late le.....

The damage has already been done....

Its irrevirsable or howeva you spell it

Years of friendship gone

All for your sake

If you read this you wouldnt understand.....

and i hope nobody ever will

Forgive me i may ask......

but i know its impossible......

For i was the one who started it

.......

Lalala random poem.

Ok updates on my life.

Not really much

Gained lost gained lost few pounds

but overall is lost a few pounds la

Got great presents for christmas

Vongola rings with wallet and weapons

Internal speakers for everything

2 watches and a book (1 watch for mh xD)

and clothes and hat and shoebag

weeee i look uber stylish hahahas

i havent change much in appearance, just that hair messier and a little taller

A LOT MORE MATURE IF I MUST SAY hehehehehe.

ok la not much update

quit maple and might quit audi soon

just checking back for some things......

feel myself getting weird this holiday

i felt sad and emo over some things

Then i felt happy.

Its like

I set a bird free,

but i'm all alone again....

but at least the bird is free now.....

To say the truth.....

Up til now i'm still lonely.....

Since P1 i had no real friends

Terry, Yiming xing hao, justin LEOW

yea these are real friends

daryl maybe too

hahahahas

but my happiest was when i was p4/p5

Escape to tampines mart with yuru and eunice in between CCAs

Chessing with yiming and getting pawned

Duelmaster-ing with everyone else......

Slack all day long.....

Now in secondary school....

i find myself more mature on the inside

But i still act childish....

I feel that the older you grow the more problems you have

I hate myself

Being all alone......

I know i piss ppl off with my childishness and loudness

But i just cant stop it.....

There was a time when i could control it though.....

But it was bursting out and i got even worse.....

I think i need counselling....

all these while i been giving ppl advice on how to improve their lives and such....

I aint better off than them....

I find myself pathetic.....

Not even having any real friends.....

Even though i enjoy the company of my friends and classmates and spiced up my life

I still feel lonely

I dont know why

there was a time.....

After psle

someone said something to me

That made me cheer up for a whole week

But i thought i heard wrongly

So i asked that person to repeat.....

But that person didnt say anything.....

and with that i was secretly glad

I'm not saying that i don enjoy being in my friends company....

its just that i prefer being in the company of books and computers....

i'm just too used to it

I'm hiding from reality and stuffing myself into those books.....

I don mind other ppl saying i'm fat or whatever

I dont mind adrian spreading it on SA that i pooped on my pants......

I'm not that self conscious.....

but i really hate myself....

I have no idea why.....

this blog is just a temporary escape.....

I needa find someone to talk to and open up.....

But its impossible to find someone to keep a secret for me.....

I have a phobia of revealing my darkest secrets to anyone.....

I had this phobia cos i got betrayed by someone in p3......

i trusted him...... and he let out the secret.......

Now i'm currently uber depressed in my heart.....

But i have to put on a fake smile for everyone....

I had to suffer in silence.

Yes i know 80% of the world's population are worse off than me

I have sufficient food and air and water and no need to worry bout living

but still......

i like to think myself as someone who is very sad D:

i feel like someone who just broke up with his bf/gf

its undescribable.....

its tearing myself apart.....

i feel a little better after spamming here.

i considered not posting this cos i knwo i would be laughed at or smth......

i really donno what to do now....

i really want to talk to weijie but i'm really afriad he would be like the person who betrayed me...

i feel like i'm about to go boomz

but don worry i not depressed til go cut my wrist....

i scared of pain anyways

and i have better ways to escape....

whenever i feel sad i just pick up a good book and i'll start feeling okay again.....

Though now i still dont feel very good a good book will not cheer me up either....

Really hope no one sees this....

Although i know that annoying JL is following my blog anyways.....

But he wouldnt read the whole thing so he wouldnt see the previous line.....

hahahaha ~

And i know my 100000000000000000000000000000000000 fans out there are

secretly following me too

even aliens

xD.

When i mean follow i mean that ppl will get updated whenever i post.

I feel like going back to school and laughing with brandon and trying to chase after ben to give him a hug after not seeing him for so long

I'll do that when i get back to school.....

That'll cheer me up.....

And benjamin will get hugs and kisses by me

Ok today nothing special.

just stuck to the excercise plan and went for muscle training.

Tomorrow Basketball

then next i dunno what.

One step at a time ._.

ok this is just an update of my nba life.

noob big atrocious life ?

HAHAHA.

ok very very long never blog le

if i said it was because of the exam i am lying

not facebook nor anything else

Its just i too lazy liao -.-

ok so updates on my life.

1, emo-er and emo-er by the day :P

2, Computer broke down but in the end dad sent two com (my room and dad room) to repair and might get a laptop.

3, Genting trip was fun but didnt go outdoor theme park STAYED AT HOTEL IN BATHTUB AND WATCH DRAMA SERIALS HAHAHA

4, getting lamer and lamer these days

Ok now for today

I finally am starting on one of my hols resolution.

EXCERCISE AND LOSE WEIGHT

do homework too but thats only a little.

ok so today

woke up at 8.

Brush teeth and pee pee

went down to the park and jogged for awhile

achieved 2km

Wanted to do 2.4 but was out of shape.....

Do it step by step

Finish jiu go fitness corner

Did all the different excercises.

So my schedule for excercising is

today fitness done

tomorrow weight training

Then after tomorrow i doono. maybe go bball bah

I wanna be able to do chin up !!!

ok then went back home

while walking back

saw 4 concrete blocks at a badminton court

and....

suprisingly the four blocks were like softball base the shape

and there was a school nearby.....

so.....

I DAMN MISS SOFTBALL

took the home base plate and started batting......

Ok then put back to place and went home and THE END

ok bye i go watch vids le.

THOSE WHO SEE THIS POST MUST TAG

Ahhhh long time no post ~

Hell boring

Just mug and mug and mug

Til i wan die le lo

But at least can play khr

Even though its only alittle but

Yeah who cares

Revise revise revise for EOY !!!

Jiayou everyone.

Ok now don't feel like blogging le

Shall go mug

Bye

Ok i realise.

I'm not gonna delete that emo post

It would serve as a reminder

A scar to remind me

Cherish my friends

And cherish what i have now

Do not complain

So what if i have a slow computer

I shall not complain (too much) for a new laptop ever again

I'm already leading a happy life

Friends who actually advise me and reaching to me a helping hand (actually only shermaine)

Thank you all

May god bless you

I was never finding the time to post this

i was supposed to post bout happy things but.....

not today......

I looked back at my life recently this weekend.

I found out that......

I actually regretted many things

The actually few true friends in my life are........

Seperated from me

Went to new school

Had their own lives now.......

Not much contact between us these days

Even justin......

Same class still......

Its really laughable and how disgusting i can actually get

I realise that i'm actually such a ^£$^&

I'm really hating myself

I can't keep my promise

I promised myself to tolerate everything

I did that in primary school

But after coming to secondary school

i realised that i could not do it anymore

i was feeling all alone again

All my true friends had truly left me

Now i just feel like,

i'm a empty and lifeless shell

With no soul nor spirit inside this lifeless body,

Just like an empty shell

I know that,

sorry doesn't work anymore

Nothing will ever bring those memories back to me ever again

Those times when i was truly happy

Running away to tampines mart after school and rushing back before cca starts

Endless exploring anywhere and everywhere

Running away to safra and chiong-ing our maplestory account

Nothing will ever remain

I find myself having substitutes for them too

Like having my account name Polaricicle

I will never forget the times i spent with them

i would give anything to just spend 1 last happy day with them

Even if it means for me to give up my life

I just wanna spend a few last moments with them.....

True happiness.....

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for breaking all the promises i made to you

I'm sorry for making empty promises to you

I'm sorry for annoying you guys everytime i felt like it

I'm sorry i had to tag along whereever you guys go.

Cos i realised.

After my first best true friend left me,

I was scared of being alone.

When xing hao left me for st hilda

I find myself crying in bed every night

Everytime i passed by st hilda

I would look out for him

I went to look at his dead blog

And found one of his post.

Then i realised.

How insensitive i was to him

He had been there for me everytime.

He was truly the only one who read my superdummy posts

Yet,

i had actually left him out when i played with others

Nevertheless,

He was the first one true friend i had in primary school

He was the first that i was happy and comfortable with

He was and is still my true friend now

Regardless of whether he knows it or not.

Terry.......

The times i spent with him were uncountable and happy

Though he sometimes made use of me

He would still include me in games and protected me

Still remembering the times when wenjie they all kept bullying me

he was one of the few boys who would actually protect me

Who would actually stand up for me

During duelmasters game

He would always protect me with his blockers

During basketball

Even though he often said i was noob

He encouraged me more than anyone else

He was my true good friend too

Playing basketball, studying together, playing duelmasters.

We even shared a maplestory account

There was Polaricicle our proud bishop

and the hermit and artist dit

a bandit

there was also the infighter and loads more

I felt truly happy

he was one of the only hopes i had that kept me from breaking down

Yu Ru.

I dont care what the primary school and secondary school people said

She's just a friend to me

But not just a friend

A very very very very good friend

She was the one who stood up for me

She took me around to places i didnt dare to go

She introduced me to where i didnt even knew exist

I promised her that if she ever needed my help,

I would be there for her in an instant

But now,

In secondary school

I cant even help her,

I've unknowingly changed

Changed for the worse

I've became more and more of a jerk.....

Yiming

Even though we were only good friends for a year

I still treated you as a very very very good friend up to now

You're the one who i truly looked up to

You're the role model that i set in mind

You're the person that i truly wanna defeat

You're the person who helped me when i was in need of help

I hope you still remember those times.....

Those truly great times we had at Maths Olympiad

........

Peix, Eun

Thanks for the wonderful times you had brought to me with yuru and terry

Went shopping around

Rushing here and there

Presents here and there

Playing catching in school

Standing up for me and including me in games

You didnt discriminate me for being fat and black

I truly thank you......

After this long post

I finally realised that i actually had such a great primary school life and such great friends.

For this

I thank god for giving me such friends

But i also have to blame myself

I didn't know their true importance to me until now.....

I didnt know to cherish them

i now then know the pain of losing your cherished ones

i now then know the true meaning of "knowing how to cherish only after you lose them" and

"losing your cherished ones without even knowing it"

I didnt even get to say goodbye......

Well then.....

End of my post

I dont care whether if you have any negative comments

or you're gonna make fun of this post

If you are gonna do that

Just fuck off

My life is terrible enough without random people ruining it......

Er ps ytd nvr post

ytd pe was okay

Had maths before that though

Then PE

Had pe with the years two and three

was kinda nice

Teamed with 2 seniors from np

Lol ~

play captains ball

ahh last match was interesting

Stupid brandon's fault

he kept hooking on to my arms and legs with his own

When he wanted to let go

My turn hook him xP

This continued for ten minutes

the whole match time seh -.-

Then after pe was recess

Yep nothing much also i think

Skip Skip Skip happily skip :P

Then was HCl and got back paper

EEW EEW MARKS

so shall not say anything :P

Then went through the paper

After that was science

Playing with food

Eew i hate one of my group members

You-Know-Who (no not tom marvolo riddle)

Then was LA

o.0 the animal farm thingy ~

But was still eew

and funneh

so TODAY

HCL first

Did compo

Eew i was having diarrhoea

keep shatting

Alas i finished it

Then was recess

Also nothing much

Eat finish then go play soccer table

Run back class for history and went through history paper

Don't wanna sleep so i listened on

Then next was Maths

Did the revision paper

Then was science

went through the summative ws and the food test

Then was LA

continued with the animal farm thingy

Ok i just realised today's life was a piece of shitty boring

So i'm off to hell

Bye

Haiz

I found out several things these few days

I'm too..... myself

I wanna go back to the time where i could be the quiet kid i once was....

Haiz....

Nothing interesting these few days.

Just the bball match we had 1e

Ya.

So this is just a post to keep my blog barely alive.

Ok bais